bliss.

had a shoot with

a) a fresh-grad, bursting-with-fruit-flavor-about-her-job fashion assistant and stylist; and

b) a veteran producer who, after network nuttiness, became a "woman of leisure who just happens to produce", and thanks to the timeout, has come back to her first love...which she can now reclaim and proclaim as her passion.

i need to find a way to love this--

photo by ian roxas

--again. i don't know if that will entail a "timeout"...or just becoming a producer again...or going back to school...i can't help but think, though, that when i hit the point where politics and budgets and the bigger picture came into play, and not just the segment/s i was supposed to produce mattered, that's when it started to turn grey.

...i can still remember the...joy i felt when i was a producer. i hardly slept, the pay was shit, i had to sleep and pee in the funkiest places, but it was so fun, and fulfilling...really frames of bliss.

ika-nga sa opisina: "saan nakakabili ng gana? pwede bang i-FEDEX yan?"

favorite prod moments:
a. sleeping on a rock next to a waterfall because we had to wait for the racers to hit the control point
b. sleeping in bulusan lake under the stars, with the military escorts snoring an opera
c. waiting for the last triathlete to come out of the swim, and everyone was cheering him on
d. fooling myself into believing royce gracie was flirting with me while i was interviewing him
e. watching an adventure racer carry his older brother into a kayak because his feet were full of raw blisters
f. ITI BAYBAY!